Im on a roll :P

I guess i feel like blogging about my progress when its going great. :) not when its not ...

So here we go.

Intake for today:

B: a half red pepper

L: breadsticks from cafeteria (do anyone know how many calories they are )

after got home i had half of a cucumber and then a small binge with some crackers and 85% chocolate. But it really didnt go that bad 

D: nothing :)

today really cant have been over my goal calorie for the day : 1400 right ? i hope its far under.. My goal is to be 118 lbs. on my graduation day may 28th 2011. I know there is a long time but you know what? It takes a long time for me to loose the weight for good.

Today i weighed myself again and i am currently a very low 61 = 134.. still same as yesterday, just even lower.. I really feel like i can do this.

I have this mantra that goes through my head every time i feel like eating.. Its "55" .Its about 121lbs... Its just keeps me going to think that i can get that low ..I get pictures in my head of me in my old skinny jeans, me in high heels looking like a model etc. and ofcouse the swimsuit scenario.. thats the ultimatum... Hope all of you are doing great. I know i am. Talk to you later girls ...

Cant wait till weekend!!! :D

Happy December everybody

Hi girls. 

Its been so long since ive blogged. Im on Xanga almost everyday but its more for inspiration, and just to check in on how you all are doing.. Im down ot 61 kgs = 134 lbs. Its better than recently, but way too high still.

December is my favorite month. I love christmas, the food, the songs, and of course the gifts. Im getting an iPod touch,which im pretty excited about. Anyways i joined AEA which is pretty great. I look forward till its getting really started, with all the supporting etc. Right now im doing pretty good with food.. Im still way too high but i resist temptation more often than usual. Probably explains my recent weightloss even though its only 3 lbs. :) its still something.. 

These days its freezing down here in Florida. I know its more cold up north but im pretty darn cold, i can tell you that! My hands are constanly frozen.. In a way i actually like the cold. It makes me less hungry in some weird way.. When im super cold i just dont feel like eating..

Today 

Intake: 

B: 2 slices of papapaya. 

L: rice chips

D: peas and corn with a piece of chicken.

Snack some popsicles.

Today i have done exceptional good.. I just havnt had the need for binge food. Except one hour ago where i had a fight with my dad.. Really just wanted to eat something but got over it.. I have to fight it at all time.. 

Really my motivation is summer. Sounds a little crazy but i just think about being in that bathingsuit. Do i want to look chubby in it or super great ? The last one of course:P

How are all you guys doing? Hope to hear from some of you .. 

Have a great wednesday... 

Breakfast

Hello all you lovely ladies. I havnt posted for a while, but im reading your posts every day... Just havnt had the energy or the need to post. 
But today i suddenly did. Today my breadkfast intales iceberg salalt, two pieces of pinapple from a can, and a sugar free Jelly. I think the calorie is about 50 which is very impressive when you think about how full i feel after..

My weight is going a bit better, still far from the goal, but slowly im getting there..

Im 62 kg about (136 lbs) , right now and my heighest weight has bee 65kg (about 143 lbs).. My goal right now is 56 kg ( about 123) . im 5´9 so thats the lowest i would like to go for now. I just want to wait and see if i still need to loose and then i will try... 

School has just started and its so so . Again, ive never liken my school so my expectations wernt that high, gotta think about that i only have this year, and then its college !!! So excited to be done.. 

Anyways,i have to get to school, hope you all have a lovely day, each and everyone of you deserve it..

Peace out .

Survey i took for no apparent reason

Cross [x] if they apply to you for the last 7 days 

I've cried more than once [] 

Someone has told me they missed me [x] 

A different someone bitched me out by text message for no apparent reason [] 

I walked more than five miles [x] 

I took some painkillers [] 

I wore my hair up,down,curly and straight [] 

I watched at least two movies [x] 

I've kissed somebody [] 

I was in a car for more than four hours straight [] 

Someone has told me they're jealous of me for some reason or other [X] 

I've watched the World Cup [X] 

I've also watched the Wimbledon [] 

I've drank alcohol [X] 

I've smoked a cigarette [] 

I met my boyfriend's mum [] 

I went to McDonald's [] 

Somebody bought me an ice-cream [] 

I've read a book [] 

It's been too hot for me to sleep [X] 

I've watched FRIENDS [] 

I went out for dinner [x] 

I didn't want to say goodbye to somebody [x] 

I've been on facebook [x] 

I've taken a lot of surveys [] 

I've gotten a suntan [x] 

I paddled in the lake [] 

A text message has made me smile [] 

A parent has annoyed me in some way [x] 

I've listened to a lot of music [x] 

I've fallen over and injured myself [] 

I've gotten a blister []

6.1.2010

Hello everybody, 

how are you all doing out there? Im doing pretty good, but had a really bad day. Last week i auditioned for showchoir, and i really wanted to get in. One of my biggest talents is singing and im actually really good :D anyways, i didnt get in.. and it really bumps me out. my friend b and i auditioned together, and even though shes not that good of a singer, she got in and i didnt. Life is so unfair. I wanted to get in showchoir to get to know more people, get more friends and to do what i love, sing.. i feel pretty hopeless, i really just want my highschool life to get over with. I hate it most of the time. 

Anyways, my intake sucked. 

breakfast: 2 rolls, w/ salimi

lunch: a half roll

lunch at home: two rolls (just eating my sad feelings ) 

uh dont like how that looks , why not just give up. but i cant, i need to look good for bikini season .. 

well, i will probably do a workout in front of the tv, have to keep the damages to a minimum. 

Feel inspired to be thin.